To That Special Someone,

Since I can't get you anything for Christmas I figured this is the next best thing. When I think of you all the sadness leaves my heart. I feel a warmth in my heart that I've never felt before. I've cried many tears because of the heartache and pain. Pain from loneliness that no one can imagine. Having to be strong and put a fake smile on, but deep down I am dying inside. I wish someone would look inside my heart and see that I'm very loving, caring and a hopeless romantic. Just a little girl that wants to be loved. I close my eyes and I see you with a bright light around you with a gentle smile and a sweet scent. When I'm around you I feel safe like nothing can harm me. I know with certain circumstances we will never be. As I lay down to sleep you are in my dreams. Dreams of the perfect man, a man so sweet and gentle. A man with a heart of gold and full of love. I'm so scared to love again, to really fall in love and get married and know that man is mine forever. The fear that I'll be alone forever. The fear of rejection that I will never know what it'll be like to be with you, hold your hand or to feel your lips on mine. You might think it's crazy that I feel this way without setting eyes on you, but I don't care. If I can feel this way for the rest of my life without know what you look like or know the sound of your voice and lose every precious moment with you then I don't want to. The fear of losing you as my friend or anything for that matter makes my heartache. I know your scared to trust and I don't blame you and to be honest it's a good thing because maybe we can become close and later down the road it'll turn into something great. I'm so blessed to have known you, talk to you and the best part is hearing you say my name. You're my guardian Angel, my saving grace, my best friend and for that I will be forever grateful for what your bring into my life. Thank you for your kindness, your ear and your heart. Most of all, I thank God for bringing you into my life. You are the best blessing I've ever gotten. Merry Christmas My Special Someone...

Love Always,
Adrienne Garcia

The Night Sky (Poem)

Sitting at the edge of a cliff
looking up at the stars
In a blink of an eye they formto your face
I see you smiling back at me
Its like watching a movie
A sweet love story

Our memories flow through the sky
I hear your laugh and all the loving things you used to say
It warms my heart like a flaming fire out of control
Melting it like a puddle of wax of a burning candle

A sense of peace like no other
feeling your presence with me
Being proud of who you are and what you gave me

Hearing your heartbeat in the wind
Hearing you call my name so sweetly
Feeling the touch of your body which calms my soul
Feeling your arms around me
The sense feeling safe

Its a beautiful scene of love that's so strong
Nothing can break it apart
The bond of two people make it through
Never forgetting what it brings

The stars will never fade away
Just like my love for you
The stars form into words:
"I Love you always and for eternity"
A great ending to a great love story
That will never die, holds on so tightly
Tightly and never letting go...

Words In a Whisper

I'm there in the shadows
I'm with you in the sunset
I'm with you in the clouds
I'm with you in your dreams
When life gets too hard to bare


I'm with you when your alone
When the kids are gone or asleep
I see you when you cry
I lay with you to wipe your tears

When you feel the wind on your face 
That's me giving you air to breathe
To help you go on another day
When you see a bright light
That's me showing you there's no need to fear
When you see me in your dreams
That's me telling you I love you
Everything will be ok


When you remember a memory of us
That's me helping you to never to forget who I was
When you remember the love we shared
That's me showing you I love you and always will


When life gets hard remember 
The sweet embrace of my hand helping you through
When you smile from a beautiful scenery
I'm sharing the beautiful creations that God made


Remember that I love you
Remember my love
Remember my strength
Remember who I was
Remember my touch
But most of all remember I am with you
I'll always make things ok for you


Do not fear when troubles come
because I'll guide you
Guide you to the right path
I'm there always and forever
Never give up never give in
To the pain of losing me
Because you didn't lose me I'm here


My departure is not forever
It's only for a little while
We will be together once again
Until then hold on and be strong
Remember again I love you
Never lose hope...

Precious Gift (Poem)

God gave you a precious gift
That you past onto me
To love and cherish
To hold close to my heart

A precious gift created in the image 
Of you and his wonderful father
I kept a promise to you both 
That I would love that gift always and forever
And I have never broke it

I have never lost sight of how precious that gift is
It brings so much happiness when I think of him
and everything he has to offer
The joy he brings to the world
When he smiles makes me feel blessed

I have never loved something as wonderful as he
Nothing has made me as happy or gave me such joy
He takes my breath away, gives me butterflies
The light he gives out shines so bright
It shines bright on my heart and soul

I sometimes have forgotten how precious he was and for that
I sincerely and truly apologize

My heart gives you so much appreciate for passing on 
such a wonderful gift
My heart feels so lucky to have felt such a love
And for eternity I will hold it dear to my soul
My soul longs to be near him
My heart aches for his love
I need him more than life itself
I love him and always will

My precious gift means the world to me
I will hold on to him forever
never let him go because this gift is my reason for living 
breathing and loving

Thank you.....

Suffocation (Poem)

Your Hate for yourself lingers in my heart

Your Hateful words scream at my soul

You lay it upon my life

Your anger rips through the wounds that you left

The look in your eyes are so cold

The ice of your soul leaves me numb

It leaves pain of pins and needles on my heart

The Strangle of your forgiveness

Makes me feel worthless 

Screams of your fears

Makes me scared

Your lies grip my insecurities 

My mind can't take much more

The control you have over me suffocates me

I can't breathe, I can't feel happiness

you think you know me by my actions

But you don't know me at all

You drain me emotionally

You rob who I want to be

Why do you feel this way about me?

What gives you the right?

Your love was pretend 

But your hate was real

how could someone want to cause so much pain

You drain my soul with your judgments

Thinking you know me

Thinking what your doing is just

My heart bleeds reliving this over and over

The same cycle of your selfishness

The truth is your just like me

But you hide and pretend that you're alright

But your not, you have your self hatred 

That you can't break free from

You need something to control

because you feel so out of control

Your bonded to your own pain

That drives you insane

You can't handle love

Because your life suffocates you

You feel chained in every aspect

So you run thinking you'll find freedom

But your mind won't let you 
You have s much anger, hate, fear and worry

that you take it out on me 

You make sure it's known

Of your insecurities 

So you feel some control of your life

You tore me apart

You broke my heart 

Your words were cruel and mean

Because your not happy 

You don't love yourself

I can't take this pain much longer

But I have to live with it

For all you've done I can't forget

and neither will you because I won't let you

Chains (Poems)

Crying tears of blood
Screaming, pleading, Struggling
For these chains to come off
A heart so black and so cold


Screaming out loud and no one hears
Screaming in silence saying PLEASE STOP!
My heart tangled in ropes
Jerking and pulling, can't break free


My wrists bleeding and bruised
From trying to break them off
All alone in a room by myself
Isolated from the world


Chains of medal holding me back
Laying on the floor lifeless
In a daze with no feeling
so empty and cold


The loneliness is so overwhelming, so unbearable
The silence I can't take
So quiet it drives me insane
The pain ripping through my soul
Dying a slowing agonizing death
The blood draining from my veins


My heart is skipping beats 
No longer struggling with these chains 
Too tired to fight any longer
The bruises hurt too much


These chains will always be attached to me
I'll never break free, this is my destiny
I live with these chains, I'll die with these chains
These shackles are forever
So its time to give up 
It's time to surrender
No more fighting these chains

It's Not Over (Poem)

Sorry for what I've done to you
Can you forgive me?
For you it's over but for me it's not over
I still love you but do you?
All our memories happiness and loneliness
Tears, smiles, cry, laugh
Please come back


I miss you a lot
As I've said it's not over
For me I'll never forget, never forgive
If you're disappointed sorry
I've cried for you
I've laughed for you
I've changed for you


Now I'm alone just because of you
Now I'm alone without you
If I die today, what will you do?
Come after or just pretend?
Not be affected


I love you after you love me
I wish I'm a grass
So I can cut myself
You're important to me
I don't know if I'll be ok


I love you, I hate you
My only wish for now
Is to be with  you


This 3 years had been my worst nightmare
With this life of mine
Everything had changed
I threw away my dreams
Since I've done this


I'm lonely forever
My sunshine becomes my night
My happiness becomes my darkness
Plenty lies, you're not here


I'm alone waiting
For you to come back
I know you can tell I love you
I know you can feel it too
But please don't leave me
Because you know I love you...