I Miss you (Poem)

You used to call me your Angel

Said I was sent straight down from Heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holdin' me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I needed you to know

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm livin' out my dream

How I wish you could see
Everything that's happenin' for me
I'm thinkin' back on the past
It's true the time is flyin' by too fast

I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I needed you to know
I miss you

I know you're in a better place yeah
But I wish that I could see your face,
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you

I'm Sorry (Poem)

I’m sorry you don’t like me

I’m sorry I’m not good enough

I’m sorry I made you upset

I’m sorry I don’t feel pretty

I’m sorry I’m not happy

I’m sorry I cry myself to sleep at night thinking about you

I’m sorry I hurt you

I’m sorry I can’t be what you want

I’m sorry I’m scared

I’m sorry I’m ashamed

I’m sorry I’m numb

I’m sorry I don’t care

I’m sorry I’m hurt

I’m sorry I’m angry

I’m sorry I’m not perfect

I’m sorry I’m not what you thought I was

I’m sorry I don't smile

I’m sorry I worry

I’m sorry I freak out

I’m sorry I’m messed up

I’m sorry I’m sad

I’m sorry I don't ask for help

I’m sorry I’m stubborn

I’m sorry I’m weak

I’m sorry I don't feel loved

I’m sorry I’m not affectionate

I’m sorry I keep secrets

I’m sorry I don't laugh

I’m sorry I feel overwhelmed

I’m sorry I’m stressed

I’m sorry I don’t take the time to get to know people

I’m sorry don't call because I don't want to bug you

I’m sorry feel like a burden

I’m sorry you don't love me

I’m sorry you hate me

I’m sorry I feel unwanted

I’m sorry I don't tell you how I feel about you

I’m sorry I lie

I’m sorry I am me

Most of all I’m sorry for being sorry

Guardian Angel (Poem)

She sits by the window watching the rain fall down

Wondering why she’s in this world

Goes on day by day with just a string of hope

She gets down on her knees and pray

Please God send me a Guardian Angel to protect me and keep me safe from harm

God lays his hands on her heart and says: no worries my child he is here with you right now don’t be afraid.

She looks over and sees someone smiling at her

And she feels so safe, he holds her hand every step of the way and tells her every day that He loves her and gives her a single rose for every day they spent

Writes her a little notes just to say I love you..

One day he gets down on one knee and asks will you marry me?

Tears roll her eyes and she says yes!

He tells her he has a little secret:

God answered your prayer I’m the Guardian Angel you asked for I’m here to keep you safe so don’t worry rest your head and go to sleep she closes her eyes as he wraps his wings around her. And God whispers in her ear: see I told you not to worry my child I’m here for you all you have to do is call my name, I love you my sweet child soon you’ll have your wings and both you and your Guardian Angel will fly, I am never far away..

A Last Goodbye (Poem)

I was sitting outside looking at the sky

As a butterfly flew by, it cycled around me

It was the most beautiful butterfly I’ve ever seen

It touched me gently and flew away

A second later I got a call that my Uncle had passed way

He was the beautiful butterfly, he came to say goodbye:

I am going home to be with My Father

Don’t be sad for I am going to a better place

Soon you will see my face

I’m in a house of the Lord

Where there is no sadness or pain

Please hold my memories close

For I am in your heart

Do not be afraid

The Devil's Son (Poem)

You sit there with a bottle of beer and a line of coke

Walking around like the victim, poor me poor me

On the outside you look like an Angel but on the inside your heart is evil

So evil you get pleasure out of my pain, now because of you I’m so insane

You turned me into you; you turned me into the person I hate

And the person I hate is you.

No one ever hugged you, loved you, or held you. All the friends you've lost

All the pain you went through, yet you’re so selfish. you find me so vulnerable so pathetic

All the sweet talking, all the lies. You made me believe that you were good

That you were compassionate and all the time, you didn’t give a shit

Making excuses for yourself just because you were labeled with bi polar

That’s the reason you destroyed me

That’s why you laughed and made a fool out of me

You were addicted to drugs and alcohol

 That’s the reason you made up that you were married, that’s the reason you

Never wanted to see me

Now all I can think about is all the bad memories

You haunt me day and night Making me feeling like a worthless piece of shit

Where were you when I tried to end my life?

Where were you the nights I cried myself to sleep?

You killed who I was, you stole my heart, and you took my innocence

All because you only think of yourself

Now you sit there happy with someone else while I’m wasting away into the darkness

I think you deserve to burn in hell for eternity and pay for all the pain you put me through.

You never had any sympathy for anything you did; you just blamed everyone for how you turned out.

You always said you weren’t going be to like your father, but the truth is you’re a spitting image of the person you hated all your life. You are your father!

You look in the mirror and your daddy is staring back at you laughing

He’s that voice in your head that screams you were nothing, he made you feel worthless

So the one person you destroy is me, you punish me for everything bad thing he did to you

One day you’ll pay for all the pain you put people through and now I’m letting you go

Freeing myself from all the hurt I went through

It’s going to get cold and lonely with no one there, so what are you gonna do?

Light and darkness don’t mix. I’m light you’re darkness

I’m a child of God and you’re nothing but The Devil’s Son.

Dying Love (Poem)

I'm laying there lifeless I gave up
I surrendered my life to you
I took my last breath in your honor
My soul leaves my body and it follows you
I sit next to you, looking at your face
You look puzzled, confused
Wondering why I left you like this
You look down and see a piece of paper
A letter I wrote to you, I watch you as you read my words
And you read it out loud:

Dear Love,

I'm free from you now, no more pain, no more memories
Free from your horrible words I no longer hate myself
I no longer feel like I'm not worthless
I'm no longer hiding behind the mask
The mask you made me put on to hide my love
You forced me to pretend our love never existed
You made me feel like I'm nothing to you
You suffocated me with all your lies
You suffocated me with your denial
You suffocated me with your fear
The fear that killed me, the fear that tore us apart
I now can breathe, I now can forget you
You no longer have control over me
This is what you wanted, you wanted me I'm gone
You no longer huant me, I huant you
I suffocate you I make you wear a mask
You will feel all the pain you put me through
You will never escape me, you will never forget me
I will forever be in your head, I will forever with you
Never forget you did this, you drove me to insanity
Now I'm gone and your the only one to blame
You will never be forgiven, you will never be forgiven

Signed: The One You let Slip Away

The letter falls out of your hand as tears fall from your eyes
Saying out loud: I'm sorry I always loved you
I smile and whisper: It's too late now
I fade away and you feel the cold wind
Staring the the mirror....
I'm sorry I'm so sorry........

My Sweet Baby (Poem)

Words cannot express the pain I am feeling without you
I look at your face and my heart stops, you take my breath away
I can still hear your sweet country accent, that gentle sound
You might not love me, but I love you, you might not have feelings for me but I do
I miss your laugh I miss the way you told me I love you..I miss the way you would sigh when I made you smile.
If you don't want to be with me I understand, if u don't want anything to do with me I'm OK with it
If this is what I get for loving you then that's perfectly fine, you can go
My heart breaks each time I think of what could of been
It brings tears to my eyes each time i think that I will never carry your name
Or have your baby growing inside of me, if u wanna be afraid, be afraid.

My Sweet Baby,
know that I will never stop loving you
know that I don't hate you
know that my heart will forever be torn in two
My body is worn out from mourning
Every inch of my body aches from this heart break

If you want to punish me, then punish me I can take it
Know that I feel worthless, not good enough, unlovable, scared, dead, alone and numb
I don't know what I've done to have you leave, but that's fine

Its like I'm mourning a death
Its like the only thing I have are memories
Its like I cant breathe, I cant focus
I have to force myself to keep living

My Sweet Baby,

Please never forget my face
Please never forget who I was
Please never forget what I left stitched on your heart
But most of all never forget that I LOVE YOU

Love Always....