Heart of Rejection #2 (Poem)

The love has been drained from my heart

The tears keep falling from my eyes
I gave you everything, I gave you my heart
A heart full of love and happiness
Now I have a heart of pain
Rejection, shame, worthlessness


I want answers to all my unanswered questions
Why can't you tell me the truth?
Why are you so unhappy?
Why do you always run away?


I wish you can be inside my head
so you know my truth
The truth of how I truly feel
How much I loved you
How much I wanted my dream come true
How much I wanted to be your wife
And have your children


All that is gone I no longer love you
I no longer want that dream come true
I no longer want to have your children
And most of all I no longer want to be your wife


I ask the Lord to help me to forgive
To forgive myself for all the anger
Forgive myself for the self hatred
For feeling abandoned and unloved


And wanting attention and wanting to be held
My heart will never heal
And now I have go on alone
Alone with no one here
Here to listen and care
All I have is me and me alone
Alone with myself
And never be the same again....