Why Lord? (Poem)

Everytime I try to say goodbye
You stop me, why Lord?
Everytime the pain gets too overwhelming
You give me signs that I need to hold on, why Lord?


Why is he heavy on my heart?
Why do I hold onto him so tightly, why Lord?
Why can't you take is face out of my mind?
Why do the memories never fade away, why Lord?


He's done so many bad things
He's hurt me so badly 
I want to let go but you don't let me, why Lord?
Why do you want me to feel this pain?
I'm tired of fighting this
I'm tired of feeling weak
I hate the anger I have for him


I can't take this anymore
I can't go on like this
My heart is no longer strong
I just want to give up
I don't see why you don't let me give up, why lord?


What is your plan for us?
What do you want to come out from this?
What are trying to show me?


Does he truly love me?
Is what he says is the truth?
Only you know his heart
Bring it out to the light
Open my eyes to what you want


I surrender it's in your hands
I give it up to you
Show me the right path
Please tell me what you want from me
Why does this always happen, why Lord....