Dying Love (Poem)

I'm laying there lifeless I gave up
I surrendered my life to you
I took my last breath in your honor
My soul leaves my body and it follows you
I sit next to you, looking at your face
You look puzzled, confused
Wondering why I left you like this
You look down and see a piece of paper
A letter I wrote to you, I watch you as you read my words
And you read it out loud:

Dear Love,

I'm free from you now, no more pain, no more memories
Free from your horrible words I no longer hate myself
I no longer feel like I'm not worthless
I'm no longer hiding behind the mask
The mask you made me put on to hide my love
You forced me to pretend our love never existed
You made me feel like I'm nothing to you
You suffocated me with all your lies
You suffocated me with your denial
You suffocated me with your fear
The fear that killed me, the fear that tore us apart
I now can breathe, I now can forget you
You no longer have control over me
This is what you wanted, you wanted me I'm gone
You no longer huant me, I huant you
I suffocate you I make you wear a mask
You will feel all the pain you put me through
You will never escape me, you will never forget me
I will forever be in your head, I will forever with you
Never forget you did this, you drove me to insanity
Now I'm gone and your the only one to blame
You will never be forgiven, you will never be forgiven

Signed: The One You let Slip Away

The letter falls out of your hand as tears fall from your eyes
Saying out loud: I'm sorry I always loved you
I smile and whisper: It's too late now
I fade away and you feel the cold wind
Staring the the mirror....
I'm sorry I'm so sorry........

My Sweet Baby (Poem)

Words cannot express the pain I am feeling without you
I look at your face and my heart stops, you take my breath away
I can still hear your sweet country accent, that gentle sound
You might not love me, but I love you, you might not have feelings for me but I do
I miss your laugh I miss the way you told me I love you..I miss the way you would sigh when I made you smile.
If you don't want to be with me I understand, if u don't want anything to do with me I'm OK with it
If this is what I get for loving you then that's perfectly fine, you can go
My heart breaks each time I think of what could of been
It brings tears to my eyes each time i think that I will never carry your name
Or have your baby growing inside of me, if u wanna be afraid, be afraid.

My Sweet Baby,
know that I will never stop loving you
know that I don't hate you
know that my heart will forever be torn in two
My body is worn out from mourning
Every inch of my body aches from this heart break

If you want to punish me, then punish me I can take it
Know that I feel worthless, not good enough, unlovable, scared, dead, alone and numb
I don't know what I've done to have you leave, but that's fine

Its like I'm mourning a death
Its like the only thing I have are memories
Its like I cant breathe, I cant focus
I have to force myself to keep living

My Sweet Baby,

Please never forget my face
Please never forget who I was
Please never forget what I left stitched on your heart
But most of all never forget that I LOVE YOU

Love Always....

A Slave To Love (Poem)

Demons playng tug a war with my head

Laughing at me, tuanting with my thoughts

Looking in the mirror not reconizing who's staring back at me

Black circles around my eyes, my eyes are empty

There's no soul, no life, no way out

Cant catch my breath, my heart no longer beating

You killed who I was, you murdered who I want to be

The voices in my head say

You're worthless, ugly, stupid

Screaming out and no one hears me

I sit alone in a quiet room

With these voices in my head, driving me insane

I try to release the pain watching the blood drip from my body

Maybe the voices will stop, maybe ill be free from the prison you put me in

Its released for alittle while I feel ill be ok

Then you come back again and say the same things

Feeling like a caged animal I'm never gonna escape from you

Why won't you leave me alone? 

Why wont you just stop taunting my mind and heart?

Stop pulling me back and forth stop draining life out of me

Stop hurting me, stop getting joy out of my pain

Take these chains off my wrist and feet

I beg you to please stop laughing, i beg you to let me go

The voice i hear is your voice, the demon taunting me is you

The demon i love is you, your the only one holding me back from living

Your the one, driving me driving me crazy

Your the one who put me in prison,

You are the chains, your the one making me empty

I want to be free, I want to live

Just stop, PLEASE JUST STOP.........................